All the New Same Things

Pretty much the same blogging I've been doing for the past years (since 2007). To be honest, I can't seem to stop blogging about my life. Not that I want to, but it's just for the record. Well, I have been blogging about my life still.. though I feel it has become more personal that I've actually had another blog page on blogger that has been restricted to only myself. The purpose of my change of heart to life-blog on a privatized page was due to not expose my vulnerable self.

Anyways, still, I would occasionally update some "things" here as some close friends and family would like to know about what I've been doing so far and how am I doing so far in life.

Living abroad

To start, let's summarize 2012.. First and foremost, I've never imagined furthering my studies to a university at such a young age (at 19) and furthermore it's so far away from my homeland! It was pretty exciting at first but makes you miss your home a lot more than usual too. The fact is, I'll only to be able to come home once (sometimes twice) a year during the summer holidays in June. I'm getting old now so I guess it's no harm learning how to live and experience life away from family.

KSMU

Didn't actually took long for me to get used to the new environment. It still took me about 7 months to get used to life in the foreign country. Mainly I think it's because of the new language which currently is the hardest language I've ever learnt. So far, I'm able to use the language when buying things at shops and shopping complexes in Russia, and very small conversations with the locals.

My awesome roommate; Musson

Then, as usual, the drama.. yeah, you get the drill. I was still kinda stuck in the past at the time, dealing with my ex is one of them. I guess some scars between two individuals can never be healed once it became too deep. Took months for me to actually get out of it. I'm not the kind of person who likes to be harsh and mean towards problems like this.. but somehow the circumstances forced me to do so when it becomes too much. I didn't like how it ended, but that's how it should be I guess. My mistake was I cared too much of others that I keep hurting myself. I needed to take a stand and be selfish for this matter.

In October, I had my own sweet moment when I emerged triumph in the KSMU MY Games Badminton Championships 2012 for the men singles and men doubles event. Took 7 rounds for me in the singles event and 9 rounds in the doubles event. Mainly I played using experience because I'm not physically at my best, won all matches in straight games, and was the youngest winner for both events. Hopefully after this, the badminton team would consider my status as the top gun for the Malaysian KSMU badminton team to help others be better in badminton. I'm thinking of taking up as a coach for the team as we're still lacking quality and also quantity. It's not confirmed yet whether I want that position or not.

Let's play badminton!

Double Gold!

Ora et Labora, Pray and Work Hard

As for my studies, life will be hectic until the end of 3rd year. I'm currently coping well with it although it gives me headache most of the time. I ended my 1st year with a good result for Biology.. yes, only one final paper *laughs*. It gets harder from now on, I mean, it's never going to be easy, right? Let's just see how all this play out. All I can say is, study schedules currently reminded me of my time back in high school. We get about 10 subjects per semester and we're given tests most of the time. Honestly speaking, it's a pain in the ass.. but I'll always remind myself that all hardships are worth it. Sometimes I complain because I thought hectic number of subjects should already end in high school.. just saying.

Oh yeah, forgot to mention one thing; Love Phase 9. Yes, I fall in love again surprisingly. I have to stress it out here that.. it didn't work out. In life, it takes two to tango. In this case, I'm the only one who wants to tango. I learnt that, no matter what you did, how much time you spent, and how much you care.. it's never working out if the person of interest doesn't feel the same way, without considering time. I did the same thing to the person who loved me before, and I didn't know how she felt until it actually happened to me. Though blinded by false hopes and signals, I still feel good and happy of the things I did. The friendship itself mean a lot to me. It'll be hard for me to fall back to this but I'll give it a try. It's the least I can do.

Well, that's about it I guess. I'm considering updating my life here more often again. Classified stories will, of course, still stay at my personal blog page. Those stories are off limits.

Until then, wishing you all a great year ahead (kinda late for that, don't you think? xD) in this year 2013 :D