for as long as I can remember all of my past relationships; each with it's own unique experience. though some of them don't mean anything at all. at this very moment, I felt like sharing these "love phases", what do I think of each encounter in an honest manner. what do I meant by "love phase"? well, simply put, it's the special relationships that I have with the opposite sex. and each phase is a different girl. ENJOY!
LOVE PHASE 1(AGE 11)
not much to tell, but you were my very 1st girlfriend. basically we didn't do much as were just kids and all we ever do together was talk and talk and talk. it got pretty bored after a while and it didn't last. it kinda sucked at that time when you treated me like shit after that. right now when I think about it, it's a laughing matter.. and I bet you feel the same way too :)
LOVE PHASE 2(AGE 11-12)
pretty much like the 1st.. well, you're best friends with the 1st girlfriend. you did the same, you treated me like shit after it was over. glad that now we're good pals again. we even chatted on Facebook recently! *giggle* I honestly don't know how far you've changed, but it was good to know that you're doing just fine.
LOVE PHASE 3(AGE 13)
honestly the funniest and shortest I've had. we just entered high school and we were classmates at the time. after a few notes sent to each other, you became my girlfriend! the whole thing was pretty awkward and you were the 1st I called "dear". I remembered how I needed to use my mum's handphone to text you every time we texted each other (I don't have my own phone at the time). somehow, the best thing about our relationship was it lasted only a week but it ended in the most friendly way. we didn't talk much to each other after that though. buy hey, you're one heck of a runner! I always loved to see you run during sports day.
LOVE PHASE 4(AGE 13)
not long after the 3rd phase, I 1st noticed you during our 1st school's badminton club meeting. you were a friend of my classmates and quickly admired you at 1st sight. with a help from that friend of yours, I got your number. everything was smooth sailing and in just about a month, you became my girlfriend! funny that whenever we meet face-to-face, the only word we say to each other was "hi". but in texting, we were like talking a whole bunch of things.. sucks eh? haa.. too bad our relationship ended with a misunderstanding. I thought that you were having 2 other guys behind my back. our relationship could have been a good one as we can work out the "lack of communication" thingy. and like the 2nd phase, I'm glad we're still friends after 2 years. hope you're doing well in whatever you do :)
LOVE PHASE 5(AGE 14-18)
among all, you are the longest I've ever had in my life. I don't know whether I can say you were the best, since you told me I was never a "boyfriend" to you from the start. but before all that, it was all real to me. you were also the hardest to win.. basically, you would treat me like shit as usual (which I never bother). and then we would have our own nice moments together, usually those times where I often make you laugh over my sarcastic comments and stories. well, I love being the "funny man" for you. I even remembered the time we 1st knew each other; I was teasing how fat my friend is and you scolded me for being so rude. we quarreled over the small matter and you gave me a huge punch on my shoulder *laughs*. despite all your harshness towards me, you still make me feel good at key moments. like the time when I said that I felt lonely coz I'm the only badminton player in class but you commented, "that's why you're mine!". at another you gave me chocs on our 1st valentine (at age 14), and then you called me your "lucky charm boyfriend" when your grades started to become better after we became couples at 17. well, those are the only few I remembered. back in my previous blog site, I created several love poems for you but I erased them all already coz I thought that it's meaningless to you. as for your current relationship, I only want to wish you the best. I'm really glad that it's working out very well for both of you. don't worry, whatever I wrote here, is already past. "God made you meet with a few wrong people before meeting the right one".. quoted by you :)
LOVE PHASE 6(AGE 15-16)
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another sports girl that I took into liking and a bit more. as you reside in Putrajaya, you visited Sabah along with your coach and team mates. that's where we 1st saw each other, on the badminton court. we didn't talk to each other for the whole time you were in Sabah. we only started communicating online shortly after you left. what I like about you, we share a lot of common things.. our birth dates are just a day and a year difference, we have a 20 year old brother who is annoying but cool, and most of all we both love badminton. we thought of being like Lee Chong Wei and Wong Mew Choo in future. in the end, I have to choose between you and the girl of phase 5.. and I chose phase 5 which left you kinda disappointed. I wondered what if you were mine at the time.. but I love your spirit for badminton. you inspired me to play at my best every time I enter the court although I only have a brief glory by playing for "peringkat gabungan" back when I was 16 winning a bronze in doubles and a quarter final in singles. you don't seem to change much and I'm glad you're still training hard in badminton. by the way, all the best in SPM exams!
LOVE PHASE 7(AGE 16)
the shawty of my class. I don't know what got me attracted to you, seriously. but you were also one of the hardest to get. I like your caring side and also the "never give up" attitude. I gave you up easily because of two things, 1st, you can't forget about your ex, 2nd, the girl of phase 5 was still on top. you're good.. just not for me I guess. but I really don't mind if you gave me a massage every time :D
LOVE PHASE 8(AGE 18)
I felt heavy typing this.. but one day the truth will reveal itself right? let me be the one to be honest about it. you were the 1st that I've coupled but was not being honest about it. I never have feelings for you, and I played your heart. don't you find it awkward that after breaking up with phase 5, and then I woo you few days after that? over that period of time, all I can think of was getting even with phase 5.. without realizing that your feelings were real for me. I thought I did the right thing by breaking up with you.. it's the best I can do. I don't want you to be with the guy who "played your feelings". I don't expect you to forgive me, I just hoped you understand. but one thing I'm really glad about you, I can tell that you are very loyal and that you're very honest with your feelings towards me. and honestly too, after I realized my mistake, I wanted to fall for you, but I felt nothing. all I can say right now is, I hope that you'll forgive me. I'm also sorry that I lied to you about the reason why I wanted to break up with you..
well, what happens to me now? doesn't seem like relationships are cut out for me. LOL. anyway, I'm hoping that this experience of mine could help the couples out there to develop a better relationship together and not be like what has happened to me. well, it's 12.13am now.. goodnight! and good morning.. see ya in the next post~
